Happy one year anniversary lao gong.
Hope he could pass the project.

I hate to see he is suffering. I hate I worry about this with him and dunno how to comfort him when send him a text.I hate I cannot help him out.I hate we havent met and wouldn't have spent time together after 2.5 years.I hate neither of us can just get on a plane to see the other part no matter what.
All of these shit.

I got the offer letter from China Leadership Project.But I had to say no in the reply email coz I cannot afford the activity which would cost nearly 20,000~30,000 yuan.

Finished watching The Apprentice 6,was impressed by this season.Because some of the candidates’ personalities are really attractive in the team of Arrow.Frankie,Tim,Nicole,James…

They are all filled with great passion and energy.Arrow is always loud and crazy compared with the other team.They are a group of people who are hard to manage and they do things in their own ways.And they are good buddies to each other having spent a lot of memorable time together in the tent around the camp fire.Frankie is a loud talker with New York accent,and he showed great passion into tasks and sometimes looked like a crazy money.Nicole is a pretty,smart girl who always speaks her mind and quite energetic.I like her character much.Tim is a Howard graduate with creativity showed in the tasks.I think he is the truest candidate in this game.James whose enthic is Korean won led Arrow to winning many weeks.He’s also very smart.Stephany,the final winner of season 6 had been performed well along the game.She was very capable in running everything steadily and had never been targetted in the boardroom.She is the most quiet one in Arrow.

The romance that occured between Tim and Nicole made this season more interesting.After Nocole was sent to the opponent team,Tim got into a dilemma of “loyalty",and the other team members blamed him for being distracted.In the boardroom,under six persons’ attacks for nearly an hour.Finally he was fired for the reason of "office romance".

I support Tim that’s life,that’s love.He couldnt force himself not to enjoy the life when he couldn’t help even though he was in the game.He fell so much for Nikki.And Donald Trump obviously got into their relationship which seemed not cool to me.When Tim was called back for assisting the final test,he searched the apartment for his girl.Nikki rushed out into Tim’s arms.The only thing at that time she needed was being with Tim she said…Hopefully,this couple are still being together now in LA.Nicole has clients there and Tim is also developing his music career out there.They are so cute.

The frustration find nowhere to land.

I feel exhausted suffering in this major which is such a boring alien to me.System forces me to keep eating the books for degree.The stubborn I makes me so down feeling that three years has been wasted for nothing useful and then face the ugly shameful outcome.

It feels like everything is shit except my relationship.